(for a moment, I FORGOT WHICH MONTH I M IN –.-)

 

read my previous post. and realise i almost wanted to type the same first paragraph again.

i dunno whats happening to me.

and seems like everyday it becomes harder to smile.

and to laugh, and to be optimistic.

 

meiriyiju just makes everything worse.

coz i am forced to plunge into the feeling i deny.

the feeling i have these days tat i refuse to let it take over me.

and when i write it out i dun feel any better.

 

okay OBS was great, and shandong trip was marvellous.

but i dun understand why now i am feeling exactly like 13 may, and probably even worse.

a few times i m holding back tears, a few times i m screaming to myself to stop this.

 

i did not complete my sentence when i said i need the sea.

coz i need the sea to cry.